Perhaps this is not the best time to do this, but I feel an urge to start a journal. What took place should be put down as history, one of my own, for me to learn. This is to watch what takes place in my personal, spiritual life. I cannot walk around wit˙ sadness in my heart, but at the same time I cannot let my ideas and convictions disappear. Sure, I am expressing how 'I feel', but doing so on paper gives me justification of my actions later on, and helps me excercize so much needed writing skills, allowing me, some day, to get the message through to people with more ease.