Repentance is a change of mind and life. I'd like to call this place a reflection of my change. Whenever I stray away, things seem to fall apart. But when I give it away from my hands, that is, stop thinking that I can take care of my life by moving it in the direction I want, then, after giving this ambition up I can have peace and acceptance of my future. I do want to place all of my time in God's hands, and as long as I make an effort to do so, interesting things take place.
Marina and I had a long talk on Sunday night. At one point it even felt like the time back in January. But I have stated that she can freely go to the guy in Iceland, to Bjorn, to other possible interests and see for herself if that is her place and person. In the meanwhile it seems that is the Spirit was affecting the hearts of Marina's parents. Her Dad ended up calling my phone to see where she was, since they were worried that we were having a serious talk, to the point of breaking up. The next morning I got a call from her, sweet soft voice. Nice short emails, call at lunch. I met up with her at Irina's recital. Her Mom and her Dad were really nice and smiley toward me. It was only later that I learned why. Saying goodnight at her car, Marina mentioned that she is almost on Ivan's black list (a joke indication that my presence is wanted by her extended family), so she was contemplating upon these reactions with a pondering smile. Repentance is a change of mind and life. If you turn from your inappropriate ways, a life of new good things awaits you.